To Jermain

This mornng when i woke up, I did’nt feel like moving out of the bed. There was this emptiness that pulled on the inside of me. I found myself crying on and off through out the day. I could’nt put my finger on why I had the sorrow full feeling.. Every time the phone rang I jumped and I found myself looking out the window most of the day when I was up trying to work. I went to the doctor to meet my new doctor and he said Mrs. Jennings your blood pressure is through the roof have you been having chest pains, head aches, shortness of breath. I told him no because I haven’t. He said you pressure is 176/108 are you stressing over anything. I told him that is funny you say that because I woke you feeling very down today doc. I have been thinking about my kids and over the last three days I find myself crying on and off this morning I woke up with this feeling of sorrow. Again crying on and off but I couldn’t put my finger on why. The doctor looked in his folder Im sure he was looking for some type of medical condition and then he said what you are experiencing is normal because your body is in morning you lost your son around this time. Boom there it was I got the call about you this morning and around the time I was talking to the doctor